I can hardly find anything to be happy about anymore.

I hope I can do it lol

All I see on tumblr is the same things over and over again. It’s not even a fun place to look at things or write things anymore. I can’t express my feelings on here anymore then I can express them in real life. I honestly feel as left out here as I do anywhere else. This sucks.

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

YAYAYASKLMFSHGK,EHJDLFHMNLA,.DSJGFNMSKJDF,XMNDF,JCVNDS.,FXJMAS.ZE,JDHN SO HAPPY.

I feel like no matter how hard I try, or even if I don’t try at all, that no one actually wants to be my friend. I feel like the people that talk to me now, only talk to me because they are my boyfriends friends. I need to not feel like this. I hope that I get accepted into this program, I think that once I start going to school, I will be able to make my own friends. And Ill be able to feel more confident and, idek.

I don’t want to have any feelings anymore.

I don’t know what to say. I don’t know what they are going to ask. What if I am not good enough. What if I say something stupid. What if I cant stop coughing :(! What if I don’t look how they want me too. What if they tell me I’m not good enough. 

I am so freaking nervous.

i really want one!